"It wasn't even a five-subject, and it contained a whole world..."
"I remember first learning about NaNoWriMo. Somebody I watch on http://Deviantart.com posted a link in their journal, detailing how they were going to write a novel in November. Now I'm thinking, How can you just up and decide to write a novel one day? How do you just say, 'I'm going to start writing a novel today and finish it in thirty days?'
It didn't make any sense to me. I'd always thought that good books just kind of flowed. You'd want to write them so they'd practically write themselves, with no planning, no thinking ahead, no outlines, no character exercises... I thought a good story would magically manifest itself into word perfect and ready for publishing. Even SPELL-CHECK wouldn't stop me!
Oh, I was a fool!
The first year was so tough on me. I hated everything about my cliched piece of crap story by chapter three. It was another one of those, 'Oh, gothic gay kid is discriminated against, omg! Feel bad for him!' type of stories you find on Fiction Press penned by thirteen-year-old girls, a dime a dozen. It was terrible. I knew it was terrible.
I pulled out all the stops, too. I didn't use contractions, I had chapters with song lyric inserts, I described a lot more than I needed to (I spent like 200 words describing some kid's pants, Lord help me). I stayed up one night and wrote 10,000 words 'cause I'd let my story go to hell, and if I wanted to make it I had to bust my booty. Last day of NaNoWriMo I stared angrily at my computer screen and practically PUNCHED the save button. 50,0001 words.
The computer, heavily virus infected at the time (whenever I'd turn it on, my desktop wouldn't load, and it would start playing weird techno music I had never downloaded) erased everything almost instantly. Oh, how I ctrl+Zed! I ctrl+Zed like it would've made a difference. I stared teary eyed at the remains of my NaNoNovel....and loaded up my last save, the last copy I emailed myself, at 35,000 words. Infuriated, I pasted it like six times into a notepad file and submitted it - and promptly felt miserable and went back to bed, which I had sure as hell earned.
I didn't think about that novel again for a long time, as it brought me great frustration. I never once thought about quitting, which was the funny thing. This novel infuriated me because I hated everything about it- but I had it ALL planned out, and there was no way I was going to let this thing beat me. I sat down, angrily attacking my keyboard every night, and goddamn it, it was worth every keystroke!
Second year, this last one, was wicked. I had more fun than I'd ever had on a creative endeavor. Relaxed, I didn't plan ahead- I just knew I had three characters I wanted to do something with. I took deep breaths, brewed coffee, and did this thing right. I never had a plot. I had moments of great desperation where I thought about quitting - it was going nowhere- but I did not. If I'd done it last year, I could do it this year...
I remember how proud and joyful I was when I saw that word counter reach 50,000 - the way I must have been smiling at my monitor when I saw my toolbar loading up the winners page. I remember how cool it was to completely enter another world and let time fly by in my high school classes, simply because I'd opened up my notebook. There was a whole world in there. It wasn't even a five-subject, and it contained a whole world...
I want to do NaNoWriMo every November for as long as my wrists don't give out. There's nothing that can stop me. I'll write in on napkins next year if I have to. I'll dictate it to keyboard-ready friends over the phone. There was one incident where, at the walk-in clinic with my sister, I grabbed a brochure with no blank pages and just wrote like 3,000 words all over it. It was terribly hard to read and type up, but I did it, because I couldn't stand the thought of wasting any time.
Rewrites? No way! These two books aren't going anywhere. I had fun, and I'm happy with the way they are now, sitting unfinished and beautiful in a folder on my C:\ drive. Next year, maybe, if I do well enough, I'll commit myself to a rewrite, but for now? I'm still riding the high.
Heck, I even saved all the episodes of WriMoRadio to my music folder, so whenever I'm feeling uninspired, I put one of them on and it takes me back to the way I felt in November, totally revved up on caffeine and ideas, and I'm able to push myself those few extra hundred words...
NaNoWriMo makes my years brighter. I have something wicked awesome to look forward to. The community is wonderful, warm, and welcoming. I just bought No Plot? No Problem!.
Next year I'm going to bring the pain... and, hopefully, go to regional meet-ups, that would be awesome too, but I'm mostly focusing on the bringing the pain thing. Next year's novel will be better than ever!
Thank you Nano ( : "
--Kaelyn
Kaelyn is a fifteen year old student in New England who has done NaNoWriMo twice. She enjoys heavy metal, old school video games, reading, writing, and doodling. Also, she really, really loves Basset Hounds. The next one Kaelyn gets she's going to name McCartney, but she's going to call it Macca for short. Haha get it, like The Beatle.
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